You should never go through anything in life and not learn from it. I’ve learned to take my time and not to settle for the first thing that comes along. When things get out of control leave chances are they wont get much better. You’re always the first to know, so when you think it’s happening believe it no sense in lying to yourself. That’s stupid. I know what stupid feels like, I’ve been stupid. But I’ve learned from my past. I will not enable any man ever. I am not a taxi cab, a doormat or any of those other degrading titles so don’t treat me as such! Please have a life, a goal, SOMETHING! I cant want it more than you do. I need my equal because I don’t have time to baby anyone. If I wanted a child I’d have one. I wont apologize for my blessings nor will I look down on you because you are more unfortunate than I have been but I will hold you accountable for what you do with the life you’ve been given. Don’t be a victim, be a man!
I’m not embarrassed to admit that I am usually the negative complainer in the group but I have worked to changed that and it is truly a working progress but for once I feel like I am the only one that sees something positive. I’ve made a major decision and I am fully aware of all the things that can go wrong but I am also aware of some of the things that can go right. No one is in my corner, No one is happy and I don’t know if it’s because they think they will lose me or if they really think It’s a bad idea. I do know being a people pleaser is a damn curse in every way. I have never done anything truly for myself. Everything I’ve done has been what someone thought was best or simply the safest thing to do and now I’m ready to take a risk. And all I really wanted was some support, just tell me, ” Don’t worry everything will be fine and most of all I’m happy for you.” That’s all I really wanted.
Relationships are harder now because conversations became texting, arguments became phone calls, feelings became subliminal messages online, sex became easy, the word “love” gets used out of context, insecurities have become your way of thinking, getting jealous became a habit, trust has been lost, cheating became an accident, leaving became the only option & being hurt became natural.
